Forgive Me...Blogger

Dear Blogspot Account,

I know you are starting to feel that I'm neglecting you for these past few days. I apologize for not updating you and posting something here. Well, I'm going to be honest with you, I'm kind of busy customizing and posting in my Tumblr account that's why I was not able to update you. I also wanted to be honest with you, I find Tumblr more interesting than you. People in Tumblr are more active there and I even got more chance of showing the other side of me where I got more response from other people for my posts compared here. I just hope you won't get hurt by these words, and although I find Tumblr more interesting, I still want to keep my account with you. I promise to still visit you as much as I can to post something here...

P.S.

If someone visits here, please do refer my Tumblr account so that they can also view my account there...

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Ricky

Emotional Bullying Has Been My Game Before

Being bullied is one of the most traumatic thing a person can experience. It is a sort of showing who is much stronger and who must be respected or obeyed. It's like proving that someone must have the power to rule and no one can even stopped that person because of the idea that he is powerful (physically or influentially) and nobody is stronger than him. Bullying can be physical or emotional. Physical bullying is attained by using the aggressiveness of a certain person showing what he can do or what type of damage he can do to the person being bullied. While emotional bullying is achieved by speaking frank and bad words to the person being bullied with the objective of hurting his/her own feelings.

I personally experienced to bully someone way back in my elementary days. As long as I can remember, I was in the 1st grade when I had this seatmate whom I never wanted to be seated with me in the desk. Since, two students are required to share a desk and my teacher was the one who chose my seatmate, I don't really have any choice but to deal with this matter. But then, after few months of schooling, I started speaking harsh words to my seatmate like he looked so ugly and he doesn't have to right to go at school (such harsh words for a first grader). During this bullying thing, I can still remember how my poor seatmate will just look at me for a while with his teary eyes and will just remain quiet until I'm done talking. I couldn't think how my seatmate resisted those harsh words from me until the end of the school year without even trying to defend his self. But my bullying thing never stopped from that. As I was reaching higher grades, a lot of my classmates had experienced to be bullied by me. Usually, they will got a harsh word from me like "you're like a pig", "oh, when are you going to die?", "why are you here? this is a school not a zoo" and other discriminating words from me. I can't even remember how many people was hurt for these sinful words. But then, as I was getting older, I started to stop myself from doing this thing, maybe because I'm scared to have a bad record from my teachers when someone will tell them how rude I am because I was actually running to be the top of our class; or the fact that I just started to realize that I'm getting matured. Well, as for now, this bad attitude of me still exists a little especially when I don't want somebody but then, I never make it to the point that he/she is going to hear a harsh word from me. If there's something harsh that I'm going to say, I just say it with myself.

"Saranair Siblor" Made Me Laughed-Out-Loud

There's no doubt that Thai movies really hooked me at this point and captured my interest as an avid movie-watcher. What I really wanted from Thai movies is the simplicity of the story that tends to uplift the imaginative minds of its viewers. There's really something from these movies that really brings the fun and stands out to its viewers as the story goes on. Well, Thai directors create movies without any exaggeration unlike other foreign films and like a typical Filipino movie (just being honest). They just stick on the concept of simplicity that really brings the idea or the message they want to convey to their viewers.

And yes, here I go again, another movie review for this Thai comedy film that I watched last night. The movie is titled "Saranair Siblor" which was released in Thailand last year and  featured some outstanding Thai comedians including the rising actor Mario Maurer (from Crazy Little Thing Called Love). And how do I find this movie?? It's really hilarious! This two-hour movie brought me fun while watching it and I couldn't even remember how many times I was teary-eyed because of laughing out loud. I find the story so weird...totally weird because of the different twists on it, but because of these terrible twists, it even added the fun and the enjoyment while watching it. So if you feel stressed and wanted to unwind, I strongly recommend everyone to watch this one. I'm not going into details about the story itself but I assure you that this will also make you to laugh-out-loud just what I did.

Well, here are some of the exciting scenes you better not missed while watching the movie..

The "Cartoonized" CLTLC

Well, since I don't have any story to share here at this time, so I'm just going to post this cute picture I found while browsing the net. It's actually a fan-made "cartoonized" version of Crazy Little Thing Called Love..

The "Ticket" Song

Well, boredom hit me again this time while staying and doing nothing here in our house, so I ended up downloading this intriguing Thai movie entitled "Love of Siam" which was released 4 years ago (2007). Downloading this movie and watching it was actually a sort of curiosity. I heard a lot of good comments from those people who already watched this Thai movie (from those posted videos in Youtube to some several forums and sites which I normally visit when browsing the net). As what I observed after reading those side comments, I found out that there's something special in this love-themed movie that really made some members of the Asian community to go "crazy" on it and given with this curiosity, I tried downloading it through torrent (which took 3 days for me to download it completely with just less than 10 active seeders). It really took a lot of patience for me to see this one so I really expected that this could be something worth-watching.

So, how do I find this movie after watching it? Well, it's undoubtedly awesome! The story is totally different from those typical love stories I already watched before and that will really make anyone to realize a lot of things after watching it. Now I know why a lot of its Asian fans are going crazy on this movie and why this movie received a lot of recognition from different award-giving buddies in Thailand and even in other countries. I'm not going to tell you in detail the entire story here cause that's not really my point why I'm writing this article. You better watch it for you to know..(LOL)

Have you ever heard about the Thai band named "August Band"? Well, this famous band in Thailand is actually part of the cast for this movie and in fact their lead singer played one of the main roles. And since, all of the band members were also playing the role of the rising boyband starting their career in the movie, of course they also managed to showcase their vocal talent by singing/performing some of their songs (though I only understand the lyrics because of the movie's English subtitle). Among from the songs that the band had performed, there's a particular song that really caught my attention and still playing at the back of my mind after listening to it a couple of times. The tempo and the beat worked perfectly strange that really brought this interest for me to listen on it. Although, I don't really understand its lyrics because it's basically a Thai song, but then the rhythm had just overpowered its strange lyrics. This Thai song is entitled "Ticket" and after doing few research about this, I found out that it's actually one of the best songs performed by this band. Hopefully, Filipino singers will also came up with original compositions just like this.

TICKET 
by August Band

You must have heard of the place that has all of our hearts' desires once we reach it

Our happiness and dreams, all that we've been waiting for, will wait for us at the destination

And only a single ticket is needed for multiple trips

But no one has ever returned to tell me anything about it

So I wonder if it's real, I want to see it for myself

Even if it's by foot, I'm willing to go if there will be something upon arrival

No matter what's the cost i must pay to get the ticket, I will

And so I paid with everything I had just for someone to return it all back to me and say

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

Like I said before, I'm dedicated and will travel anywhere it takes

No matter the fatigue, the heat, or the cold, I'm not afraid

With a proud heart I will endure it all and within a short while the destination will be near

So I struggle on to reach that destination that is disappearing

It's probably is not real, a destination like that for someone like me

The ticket that everyone has, probably does not exist for someone like me

And so I turn back to the way that I came from, and there I saw someone looking at me

When I walked back, I saw that it was the same person that told me repeatedly, stressing that

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

This ticket is not for me even though it is sold to all

It's just that this train does not have a place for me, so I can't get on it

And so, here's the song:

Ticket

It's All About Failure

I couldn't think how am I suppose to write in words what I'm feeling right now. It is just that no matter how hard I try but still, my efforts are not really enough to achieve the things I really wanted. Why is it that people like me has to go through series of failures and disappointments while others just wait for success without even doing something? Is this how life is showing me how unfair it is?...that I have to go through with a lot of downfall moments for me to realize that I don't deserve success...or that I have to work a lot for me to have a little slice of it..

REACTION: but sooner or later, it will also define who you are...

REACTION: but why should be there's only one winner if they can have 2 or more??

REACTION: yeah, I agree with this...

REACTION: and then you will just realize that it's all useless..

REACTION: but in the second time you don't succeed,

failure may be your destiny...

The Untold Story of a Poor Wall Clock

It's been 4 months had passed when our wall clock stopped ticking and from that on, no one really bothered to replace its old battery with a new one. Poor wall clock... everyone in our home has its own watch so it just stayed stocked for so long and will still remain "timeless" as long as no one will really care to put a new battery on it. 

Pika-Meow: A Cute Little Cat Mimics "Pikachu"

I found this cute picture while I was browsing the net... This cute little kitten tries to mimic Pikachu, although Pikachu is actually a mouse... (hahaha).. I just wonder if this this cat has also a powerful "thunderbolt" attack just like Pikachu.. Isn't it cute???

Angelica P. Versus Mommy D

What will happen if Angelica's Derek Ramsay will be rumored having an affair with Mommy D?
Well, here's the glimpse of their war if ever...
Hahaha...

In the RED corner, we have Angelica P. a.k.a. "The Head Turner" (literally..lol)

While in the BLUE corner: Mommy D a.k.a. "The Mouth"..


>>JustForFun<<

How to Eat Your Favorite Lobster...

Well, Mr. Bean never disappoints me... the funniest and the craziest man on earth I think..LOL!

The Floppy Disk-inspired Flash Disk

As I was browsing the net, I found this pictures of the so-called Floppy Disk which happened to be a Flash Disk at the same time. I never thought of something like this before, and how could be the creator of this was able to came up with this incredible idea. (that's really awesome!).. I guess its creator is totally a floppy disk fanatic trying to save his beloved floppy disk from total extinction..LOL

Close Encounter with a "Corporate-World Monster"

The most traumatic job interview I ever had happened yesterday. From my previous blog, I had mentioned there that  I am applying for a Java Programmer position in a certain company and I was invited to come back yesterday for the job interview after passing the series of exam. Hoping that the interview will not take that long and not that harsh to me, I came back to that company with full of confidence (since I was able to pass the exams which I think the hardest part for the employment process there.)

Since I was scheduled for 9:30am job interview, I arrived there in the office 30 minutes before the scheduled time for me to be really prepared (even though it was raining so hard that day). Actually, three of us were scheduled for the interview, including the other applicant who also took the exam on the same day when I took the exam, and the other guy which I think he took the exam ahead of us. Then, the HR came to the reception area where we were waiting and called the name of the applicant who first arrived in the office. I came second in the office so I was scheduled for the next interview with the HR. After a while, the HR then arrived in the reception area and called my name for interview indicating that she was done interviewing the first applicant. At that point, I didn't felt being nervous or tensed at all maybe because, the HR was really nice and calm and somehow, I was able to conquer that fear from my previous job interviews from other companies.

We headed to a certain room right beside the room where I took the exam, and then there's no other person there except for myself and the HR. After a while, the interview had started. Well, the interview with the HR had just became a normal conversation asking me about things I had included in my resume as well as other personal things. I think, the entire interview just lasted for about 15 minutes and then instructed me to answer again the 9th item from yesterday's aptitude exam (I just don't know why...)

After giving a sheet of paper and the questionnaire, she instructed me to answer that item in the same room where I took the exam yesterday. When I entered the room, there were also some new applicants answering the exam and I also found there the first applicant who was also called for the interview. Just like me, the other applicant was also told to answer a certain item from yesterday's exam. As I was answering the problem, I actually heard the interview of the HR with the third applicant from the same room where I was interviewed. I just found out that the conversation was actually heard by other applicants taking the exam, so I felt shy because everyone else in the room was actually listening too when I was interviewed by the HR. But then, I continued answering the exam, and submitted it after I was done. I was then told to return to the reception area to for another interview but this time with one of the managers of that company. We had waited in the reception area for almost an hour and then the HR came back informing us the manager can only accommodate to interview the first applicant since the manager was some kind of busy that time. The HR then advised me and the other applicant to take our lunch and to come back at 1pm. 

Since I wanted to finish this entire "interview" thing, I headed back to the office 10 minutes before 1pm. There I have to wait again for my name to be called for the interview. After few minutes, the other applicant had also arrived. Again, we waited for about half an hour before the HR approached me that their manager was now ready for an interview with me. I came to the same room where I was interviewed by the HR where the manager was already there. Thinking that the whole interview will be also fine just like with the HR interview, so I entered the room with full of confidence. Then the interview with the manager had started.

At first, the interview with the manager was still fine, I mean he was just asking me personal things about me... but there was something different, the manager was actually making weird gestures and was very slow in asking me questions. As if, he was showing me that he was not really interested to interview me and was actually showing me that he just spent his time for nothing. As the interview goes on, I had remembered that some interviewers were actually just like this and they were just distracting the applicants with their intimidating gestures. At the back of my mind, this interview will not be an easy one  so I kept myself focused. I still even tried answering his questions and tried relieving myself from the intimidating gestures of the manager. As the interview progressed, he started to ask me complicated questions, usually scenario-questions that will require for answers if what will I'm going to do if I had encountered some specific situations. But then,  his questions require specific words or specific phrase. He don't even want answers with the same thought with his expected answers. And since, I personally admit that I really keep on talking a lot of things for me to explain my answers, he even told me that I was being talkative already and he just wanted to hear a word from me. By that time, I felt being so down after saying those words to me. What's more even worst, was I wasn't able to get some of his questions and their were times that I even answered different things which he always pointing out that I didn't answered his questions. I really tried my best to really cope up, but at that point, I was totally lost in the interview, as if I was in nowhere. At that time, all I want was to finish the interview with that "monster" and leave that place as soon as possible. After almost an hour of interview with the manager, he finally stopped the interview. Of course, by showing respect and gratitude to him, I still thanked him for his time and efforts, but deep inside, I felt disappointed and crushed into pieces. Without second thoughts, I hurriedly went out from that room and then approached the HR asking her if can I leave already. Still the HR has been so nice to me and told me that I can go already and she will be calling me if ever I passed the interview. But I don't want to expect a lot, with that disappointed face of that manager, I couldn't think of any positive response from him. I couldn't see any possibility that the HR will still call me for the job offer. Well, after this mentally-torturing interview, it even thought me that worst things like this really happens in real world and at least, I tried my best to defend myself from that corporate-world monster (just kidding!)..

>>looking at the bright side<<

That Thrilling Roller Coaster Job Exam

"We really appreciate your time and effort for coming here to take the exam. We are happy to inform you that you had passed the examination. Your interview will be scheduled as soon as possible."

These are the words written on that letter given to me after taking that roughly 4-hour exam in a certain company where I am applying for a Java Programmer position. Let me tell you how that exam turned out to be a roller coaster of experience for me.

Yesterday, the HR of that company called me, inviting me for an "allegedly" job interview at 9am the following day. I got my resume printed also yesterday because she was asking me to bring a copy of it. Then, this morning I woke up so early to get prepared and headed to that company. I came so early on the building and decided first to stay in the nearest convenience store located also on the same company's building. At around 8:45am, I decided to enter the building's main premises and surrendered my ID in the security personnel and then went to the company's office located in the 9th floor of that building. When I reached the office, I told the receptionist that I was scheduled for an interview. But then, the receptionist asked me if I had taken the qualifying exam already, so I answered no. To my surprise, I have to take the exam first as part of the application process for that position. I totally misheard the instruction details of the HR who called me yesterday and just assumed that I'm just scheduled for an interview in that company. So I have no choice but to take the said qualifying exam. The receptionist asked for my resume and gave me the questionnaire with the answer sheet for the IQ test. By the way, the exam has two parts, an IQ test (which I found not really complicated) and a programmer aptitude exam.

When I entered the room (their conference room I think), there were some applicants who were taking the exam already. (The exam is supposedly scheduled 9am and then, there were applicants who arrived earlier than the scheduled time. They don't seem so excited..hahaha..) Thinking that my so-called "competitors" had answered already some of the items on the IQ test, somehow I felt worried that I may not be able to answer all the items of it. But then, my worry had gone when I found out that the entire exam is not a time-pressure type. So, I just started answering the 75 items of the IQ test and found something unusual..

While I'm about to answer the exam, I noticed that the questionnaire has already answers on it. So, I was afraid that the checker will notice it so I returned to the receptionist and told her about the answers in the test questionnaire. She even gave me a new questionnaire and I headed back to the conference room for me to start answering the IQ test. While I and other applicants were so busy answering the test, a group of 3 girls sitting beside me, were making some noise and unnecessary sounds (since they knew each other, maybe classmates in college.) What's more even irritating was they tend to ask answers from each other since there's no other proctor inside the room who will watch us while taking the exam. And after answering the exam, they even keep on talking as if no other people were still not done with the exam and that includes  me. I knew that other applicants were also annoyed of their laughs and noises, but then, all of us were still concentrating on the exam.  After an hour I think, I'm done already with the IQ test and submitted my answer sheet and questionnaire with other applicants who answered the exam ahead of me.

The HR, who happened to call me yesterday, now entered the room and gave the second set of the exam. Though I found the IQ test very simple, I was surprised with the Programmer aptitude exam given to us. It was totally more complicated than the first test and contains ten problems that must be answered logically showing how you come up with your answer for every item. I had a very hard time understanding how am I going to answer this so I just read and read and read the instructions being provided as well as its examples. After reading the instructions a couple of times, I started answering the exam. While answering the exam, the 3 noisy girls had really annoyed me a lot that time because they don't even answering the exam and were just talking with each other (I guess they just totally surrendered and never even tried to answer the second test..) I was feeling mad at that point because they were even distracting me. I'm not trying to judge them but they were acting unprofessionally already (knowing that no other company's employee was around to watch them). But then, though I felt so irritated and annoyed with those girls, I continued answering the exam. After almost three hours of answering the exam, most of the applicants went out from the room to give their questionnaires and answer sheets to the HR. Since, I'm not really expecting that I'm going to pass the programmer aptitude exam, I didn't even tried answering the last item of it, even though I managed to answer all the 9 items. I was also expecting that the checking of the exam will not happened on the same time and the HR will just call me if ever I passed the exam. Totally tired, exhausted and hungry that time (since its lunch time already and I haven't eaten my breakfast), I was really hoping that we were allowed to leave the building. But then, when I passed my answer sheet and questionnaire, the HR told me to wait for some time because she's going to check our papers. So I headed to the reception area of the company where all other applicants who took the exam were waiting there. After few minutes, the HR came with some letters. The letters actually contain a message whether an applicant passed the exam or not. That time, since I'm exhausted already, I don't even felt any fear or worry if ever that I was one of those unlucky applicants. All I wanted was to get out of that place. If I'm not mistaken, five letters were given to the first five applicants who finished the exam ahead of me. I haven't received any letter at that time since I just submitted my papers a few minutes ago. The HR also instructed the applicants who had received the letters to stay if he/she managed to pass the exam and of course, to leave for those who didn't made it. Surprisingly, only one applicant remained and the rest of 4 applicants left the place...(including the 3 noisy girls).. And then, the HR went back to her table. After few minutes of waiting and talking to that applicant who managed to pass the exam and with other applicant who has been waiting also for the verdict, the HR returned calling my name. She asked me if why I didn't answered the last item of the exam, so I just told her that I thought I was running out of time since the other applicants had left the room. She even told me that I could have passed if ever I answered the last item. She also said the same thing with that other applicant who has been waiting for the result of the exam. I'm not really expecting that this will happen and the HR told us to finish first the exam. So, I and the other applicant headed back to the room and started answering the last item of that exam. After a while, both of us were through and passed our papers to the HR. Again, we were told to wait for the result at the reception area. And then, the HR came with letters and this time, one of it was for me. Since we were four on the reception area, including 2 other applicants and the other applicant who was also told to finish his exam. Fortunately, I was one of the lucky applicants who passed the exam. Only 1 of us left the place and the three of us were instructed with our interview schedule. Due to availability issues of the two other applicants, they were scheduled for an interview in Thursday while I was scheduled for the interview tomorrow and since the result were announced already at around 12:30PM, I wasn't able to attend my another scheduled examination for other company also scheduled on the same time. >>sigh<<

The "Crazy Thing" is a Philippine Box Office Hit

Have you ever fascinated watching Asian movies? Well here in the Philippines, Filipinos had just totally embraced this, not only watching Asianovelas which starred famous actors and actresses from Korea, Japan, China and Taiwan but also with their blockbuster movies. And again, another Asian country had gained its popularity on the list of the countries that really captured Filipinos' interest for Asian movies. Thai movies (Thailand movies) had  became more even popular and even reached Filipinos qualifications of highly-caliber films.

I can say that Filipinos are really film-lovers and have a very good sense of cinematography. And these reasons could really explain why they tend to love watching Asian films (even though they just rely on the subtitles to understand the dialogues of the characters). One thing that really catches the attention of a typical Filipino to fall in love with any Asian movie is when that movie has an "out of this world" love story. Filipinos are hopeless romantic and can easily relate to love stories that most Asian films had.

"Crazy Little Thing Called Love" which starred Thailand's brightest stars of their generation, Mario Maurer and Baifern, had totally hooked the Filipinos. I, personally, was able to see this Thai movie more than ten times already and I never regret watching this movie all over and over again. Well seriously, I was also hooked by this movie. So what's with this movie that made its Filipino watchers to go crazy over it?

The movie is a typical love story of an ugly girl named Nam who fell in love with a cute guy in their school named Shone. Nam was really in loved with Shone and did everything to be noticed by changing everything with her (from her looks to her study habits). She tried to change everything in herself from being just a "bug-faced" girl to a glamorous and one of the good-looking girls in their school. She tried everything to really look good like a caterpillar going through the process of metamorphosis. Though she faced a lot of hardships and sacrifices (that includes a lot of discriminations from other people especially from Faye, a good looking girl who happened to be her rival in most of the scenes in the movie), still at the end, she blossomed to be a beautiful lady like a butterfly coming out from its cocoon. She used her love as an inspiration to transform herself  to be a better Nam.

But what about Shone? Well, at the beginning of the story, he never really showed interest to Nam. But as the story goes on, that boy had also showed some thoughts about the "transforming" Nam especially when Nam had became Top's girlfriend who happened also to be his  bestfriend. Unlike Nam, the Shone in the movie was someone afraid of trying things and has a fear of failing. At the end, the story had also revealed that Shone had felt the same way with Nam that at the very first time they met, he had also fell in love with the "bug-faced" Nam. In fact, he even created a scrapbook that contains pictures that tells everything about what he feels for Nam and tells how he was that coward guy secretly in loved with her. Well, I can't judge Shone at all. He and Top had promised each other not to fall in love with the same girl so he was just keeping that promise as a bestfriend even sacrificing his own happiness. (what a loyal friend :)).. They finally separated ways after Nam confessed what she really feels for Shone and after she found out that her Shone and Pin (Shone's closest friend) have a relationship. The heartbroken Nam then chose to go to U.S. to be with her dad without even knowing that Shone had also fell in love with her. Shone on the other hand had also left after he was chosen to be trained as part of the soccer team.

The story ended when the successful fashion designer Nam was invited for a TV interview, about 9 years later. Then, Nam was then surprised to see Shone there when the host had also invited him on that interview. Finally, Nam cried into tears after she found out  that Shone was actually waiting for her to arrive from abroad. The ending of the movie is a sort of disappointing and very simple, but on the other hand the simplicity of the story had really made to its viewers to relate on it.

Just recently, ABS-CBN, Philippines' leading TV network had aired the Tagalog-dubbed version of this movie. Although a lot of scenes were deleted, I would say that again, it flamed up the passion of the Filipinos to really appreciate Thai movies like this one. Based from those Facebook posts of its avid fan after watching this movie and other side comments I had read from the internet, "Crazy Little Thing Called Love" had really gone phenomenal and now really put its mark along with Philippines' most watched movies. Well, there's only one thing that I could say about it, Thai fever is on!!

Here's the movie's theme song. Though I don't really understand its lyrics but still I really like it.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love OST - Someday

My Laziest Week Ever

Well, this has been my laziest week I ever had after being graduated in college and after grabbing that diploma of unemployment. Usually, I keep myself busy looking for a job for the past few weeks, applying online and doing walk-in application for every possible hiring companies being advertised through Jobstreet or JobDB. I hope being like so totally lazy like this will not take that long for next week. I do promise to keep busy next week and will look a job...swear.. I have to rush and be really eager for my job application. I have to put a deadline for myself that within this month I must find a job already. I can't live this lazy life all throughout. Staying at home, waiting, doing nothing but just surfing the net with my facebook and twitter accounts are making me so wasted. Oh crap! I can't go on this kind of life...Let me free from being indolent. I don't want to be with those monkeys while singing The Lazy Song as what Bruno Mars did in his music video (even though I really like this song).

The Lazy Song

June 2, 2011 is My 7777th Day Of Existence

What's something special today? Well, it's just that today is my 7777th day of existence in this world according to that widget installed on the left portion of this blog.. What something unique about this is the four 7 digits indicating the total number of days I spent my life in this world from the day I was born until now. Not everyone is given the opportunity to live this long in this world so I really see this as a blessing from God. 7777 days of existence is truly a miracle and a gift.

They said that everyone has it own purpose why he/she is still breathing and still living in this world. Some are here to inspire, to give joy to someone, to love and most importantly is to serve God. Though life could be so harsh to everyone at some point, still living in this world is the greatest achievement that everyone must always be  proud of. The time we spent here in this world is the time given for us to express ourselves to another individuals, the time given to us to do good deeds, for us to share and express love. So enjoy living in this world and spend the rest of your time happily because when the time comes that you need to leave this world already, at least you know that you had spent your existence with that joy in your heart. :)

>>Being Possitive<<

And Now My Flame is Starting to Burn Out...

A few years ago, where I was still in my first year level in college, we had this minor subject in school called "Introduction to Humanities". The subject is about learning the principles and cultures of every group of individuals living in the society. Though my classmates see this subject as one of the boring subjects we had for that semester, I really loved this subject and really paid attention for every class discussion. One time, our professor required us to draw something that would describe us as a person and must be presented in front of the class the next meeting. It was a sort of a simple project that I found so interesting since it would not require any mathematical analysis (yeah..that's right, I'm an Engineering student way back before and my world revolves in Math that time..hahaha.. some kind of relief..) Eager to work on that project, I decided to draw a Flame. I am not really good in sketching or drawing using Pastels so I was able to draw a "not-so-good" flame and also wrote an essay explaining my drawing at the back of it.

"The Flame of Ricky", the title of my project (though it sounded so odd, which was based from the title of an anime show from my childhood days) had somehow showcased both my artistic and writer sides. I even got a high grade for that project and was able to present it in front of my classmates and my professor. What I included on my essay about my drawing were the reasons why I choose Flame to describe me as a person. Here's an excerpt from that essay:

"..Like the flame which continues from burning and shining even though the wind blows it."

Of course, I was referring the wind to the difficulties I encountered on my journey. (Here's the catch! Unintentionally, my "rival" in our group had chosen the wind to describe him as a person and I'm not really aware about that so during our project presentation, we were both surprised to know that even for that simple project we still compete against each other.) I would say that writing that essay really motivated me to perform well and concentrate in my studies. Humbly speaking (not trying to boast..seriously), I'm in lined to those top students of our class who really excel in every subject. I used to be a shining flame way back before.

Few weeks ago, and five years after doing that project, while I was cleaning my room and throwing all those paper trash from school (thinking that I will not be using those school "leftovers" anymore because I just graduated already) I was surprised to see my "Flame of Ricky" project from the pile of papers kept inside a box. My drawing is still in tact and still looks the same as before. The essay written on its back is still readable that brings back those happy times of being a college freshmen. As I was reading it again, I just realized that the Ricky writing that essay and the Ricky reading it now are totally different persons. The old Ricky is full of passion and a fighter while the present Ricky is now turning to be someone who doesn't achieve well. The flame of me now is starting to burn out unlike the flame I had before. As time passed by, I started to realize that I'm not the Ricky who always excel and, who always achieve things just like before. What is left now is the Ricky who is just okay...not that worst but not even better. This realization had brought me this fear..fear of not shining and be neglected like the flame which is burning out and started to vanish. I just don't know how to figure out what must I have to do to keep my flame burning. I just hope that there must be something which will bring back the aggressive flame on me, something that will ignite again the flame of being me before it totally burned out...(--hoping--)