Emotional Bullying Has Been My Game Before

Being bullied is one of the most traumatic thing a person can experience. It is a sort of showing who is much stronger and who must be respected or obeyed. It's like proving that someone must have the power to rule and no one can even stopped that person because of the idea that he is powerful (physically or influentially) and nobody is stronger than him. Bullying can be physical or emotional. Physical bullying is attained by using the aggressiveness of a certain person showing what he can do or what type of damage he can do to the person being bullied. While emotional bullying is achieved by speaking frank and bad words to the person being bullied with the objective of hurting his/her own feelings.

I personally experienced to bully someone way back in my elementary days. As long as I can remember, I was in the 1st grade when I had this seatmate whom I never wanted to be seated with me in the desk. Since, two students are required to share a desk and my teacher was the one who chose my seatmate, I don't really have any choice but to deal with this matter. But then, after few months of schooling, I started speaking harsh words to my seatmate like he looked so ugly and he doesn't have to right to go at school (such harsh words for a first grader). During this bullying thing, I can still remember how my poor seatmate will just look at me for a while with his teary eyes and will just remain quiet until I'm done talking. I couldn't think how my seatmate resisted those harsh words from me until the end of the school year without even trying to defend his self. But my bullying thing never stopped from that. As I was reaching higher grades, a lot of my classmates had experienced to be bullied by me. Usually, they will got a harsh word from me like "you're like a pig", "oh, when are you going to die?", "why are you here? this is a school not a zoo" and other discriminating words from me. I can't even remember how many people was hurt for these sinful words. But then, as I was getting older, I started to stop myself from doing this thing, maybe because I'm scared to have a bad record from my teachers when someone will tell them how rude I am because I was actually running to be the top of our class; or the fact that I just started to realize that I'm getting matured. Well, as for now, this bad attitude of me still exists a little especially when I don't want somebody but then, I never make it to the point that he/she is going to hear a harsh word from me. If there's something harsh that I'm going to say, I just say it with myself.